hi =)

my sneakers have come full circle. after 5 years



hahahaha this is gonna be random


history of all the sneakers i've worn



sec 2 ( my 1st sneaker ) : adidas superstar
sec 3 : converse one-star?
sec 4 : converse all-star high cut
jc 1 first half : puma clyde
jc 1 last month : nike airforce 1 high cut
jc 2: adidas superstar


i have 1 pair of sneakers of a different brand each ( is that grammatically correct? ) lol so if you wanna know which brand of sneakers is the best u can ask me =D


each pair of those shoes represent a part of my life. and exists as a part of my memory. of the things and event that happened while i was wearing them. that's why i can't bear to throw them away even after they've worn out. i still have my 1st adidas superstar somewhere in my shot closet. hahaha



wooot! so the return of the adidas superstar marks the end of the circle! but a cirlce cannot have an end because there isn't a start. and according to circular motion.. ok i've deviated.





i love my sneakers =D

today was the release of the new mad exco. as well as the 'passing down' of job scope n shits.
mm so i guess this officially marks the end of my term as the hip hop head. i've told lots of stuff to the new heads. dunno how much they can take in and remember. because alot of things they still do not understand as they've not experinced it. hope they remember at least some and the rest is up to themselves.



im relieved of all my duties already. so now im 100% a student. mugging for As. i dunno why but suddenly this feeling of emptiness struck me. its different from the one after dancenight. my term has ended. i did what i could. i did what i thought was right. hope i made a difference. i did not really finish what i set out to do. but that's always the case isnt it. we all have goals ideas and dreams. and that's what drives us to continue moving forward. but whether we'll reach the goal that we envisioned. is not entirely up to us. i did my best. i tried my best to do my best. i hope it was enough. actually i've not really asked the rest how they felt when i got selected as hhh last year. maybe because i was scared of hearing their answers. maybe coz i thought it was better if i didnt know. i didnt know whether they accepted me as the one to lead them. i didnt think i was good enough. im not the best dancer amongst them and i dun think im charismatic enough for all to respect me. but i led them anyway ( or tired to do so ) because i thought i was the only one who can make the difference. you can say its my ego or whatever i dun really care. but if there were someone whom i thought could do it better than me. then i've definately not ran and just sit back and not cared. i wouldnt say the experience is what i totally enjoy or what i looked forward to. but looking back i can say that i definately do not regret my decision.




success or failure? its not up to me to decide. nor does it matter anymore. its just a small and tiny part of my life. 20 or 30 years down the road i may not even remember i walked this path before. but this is the path that i've chosen for myself. that i made sacrifices to keep myself on this path.




i've got no idea why the hell im writing this. maybe coz im really bored after cutting my hair and coming home so early and do not want to start mugging again. doesnt matter.





still remember exactly 1 year ago when i was anxiously waiting for ck's sms regarding the exco results. and feeling so confused when i first received it coz i couldnt understand what he meant. and finally jumping up and down when i deciphered it and rushed to my dad to tell him the result. now everything just seems so distant and insignificant.

i am blogging again because phap was really too enjoyable!!!! =D


hahahaha omg its the best fun i've had since... DANCENIGHT'09 BACK AGAIN!!
all the memories from dancenight really came 'back again' when i stepped into jiahong's house. err actually outside his house when i saw the dancenight banner! MY BABY!! hahaha omg that was super surprising la seeing the big brown thingy hanging down. lol even more surprising than all the pbap signs on the road leading to jiahong's house.... those were really WTH -.-




seeing all the dancers again. looking at the photos pasted on the glass walls. and the annoucement paper ( plus metal ) aeroplane on the horn of some porcelein animal. hahaha ok i shall summerize all the highlights of ytd in point form below if not i will never be able to finish writing this post before tml



-seeing the phap sign on the street and LOL
-seeing the dancenight banner and WTH then LOL
-stepping into the house and WOW at the lights n music and atmosphere
-watching retards playing the dancing rabbit game! hahahaha
-eating pizza then started laughing randomly with all the modern guys for no apparent reason!
-for like 15min. felt like dying after that
-saw andre's jimp face photo on the glass wall and laughed for another 15min. died.
-countinue to laugh
-and laugh
-played the dancing rabbit game myself. being laughed at during the slap butt part
-found out i kena owned by the battery after i lost the game 0 to 400 plus to jiahong's bro
-laugh until crazy. AGAIN
-kena owned by jiahong mom's polka dotted skirt joke. ( ok this one must really elaborate!! we were laughing halfway while play wii when jiahong's mom came into the room. she asked sarah whether she wore the black n white polka dotted skirt for dancenight. sarah was like ' uh huh'. then she pointed to the lamp behind sarah and said " why did you leave it here for!" ......... everyone stoned for at least 15secs.......... stone sommre...... after the joke hit me i almost died laughing. AGAIN! HAHAHAHAHA OMG THAT WAS LIKE THE JOKE OF THE NIGHT MAN!! TOTALLY EPIC!!!!)
- yea so we laughed again.
- couldnt remember much coz my brain is almost fried after all the laughing.
-OH then sth about ck calling all the j2 hiphoppers out
- and all the rest got regina and i our very own WE DID IT! shirt!!! omg with our faces on the back!! HAHAHAHA! i was seriously super super surprised plus gan dong. but i didn't cry la haha coz the mood was totally out of it and i dun cry so easily =P but i really want to thank all the hiphopers for it =DD although i think whenever i wear it out ppl consperm laugh at me one. due to my retarded photo on the back! hahaha and if regina and i wear it out together... err no comments.. LOL
-after that was DANCENIGHT' 09 videos!!! relive all the moments again!! woohoo super high during all the shows. haha
-2nd disk was corrupted so we ended up watching our pre-jc/mad performances!! OMG I WISHED I CAN JUST DIG A HOLE AND HIDE INSIDE DURING THE 4K PERF LA! hahahahahahahahaha wts this one is seriously can die one man! now all my reputation gone already. lol its really hard to imagine what retarded stuff we did in the past..
- ok this point i forgot is after or before the dn vids. kena saboed by the rest to play guitar hero. failed miserably coz its my 1st time touching this game. got owned by caroline coz she is SICK on the guitar!! omg o.O this shows you shouldnt judge a person by her size man! hahahaha
- i dunno where should this point come in also but heck. they somhow got the mic for the guitar hero and we started singing ( shouting no screaming) WHAT I'VE DONE! 1 song. just 1 song. and it screwed my voice for the entire 2 days. LOL now you know how hard i shouted. how jiahan shouted. how everyone shouted. i dunno how it sounds like. but i think it like a whole bunch of crazy drunk idiots shouting their lungs out for no reason. lol
- watched 4 movies in total
- 1st one: skeleton key. i wanted to wack myself for choosing this coz the story development is SUPER SLOW... and we almost fell asleep only till the end where pace caught up and the twist at the end was unexpected thus quite nice.
-creep. just wack anthony for choosing please. no point. no story. no nothing. wasted our time
-house of wax: haha this one not bad coz some parts were quite funny. and other parts quite sick. with head kena cut of and shit
-terminator 2! i would have stayed awake throughout this if the 3 shows before this werent so bad. watched till the most exciting part n fell asleep. lol but it really rekindled our childhood memories n love for arnold =D
- fell asleep for 30min maybe? then woke up and watched " i guess i guess i guess guess guess"
hahaha starded laughing again at wu zhong xian's retarded jokes
-went vivo to watch monsters vs aliens
-sat on the 1st row. though chair was comfy
-laughed my abs out again
-the show is purely 100% retarded! lol esp the diguising themselves part " i've got no brain but i've got an idea!" HAHAHA and the " 5 4 3 2 1 0... countdown is finished.. maybe my countdown is * BOOM*" hahahahahahahahahahahahahah i just couldnt take it anymore there
-went home.
-fell asleep at 6pm sunday
-woke up 8am monday. WOOT!!




that's it man! if you manage to read until here i congratulate you coz i think you'll need an eyedrop already. lol i just want to say. really thank all the people from mad. for making pbap such a fun and laughing experince. for making dancenight a special and unique event that i'll never forget. for making these 1.5 year in the cca so enjoyable and wonderful. for making a difference in my life =)




joining mad is a choice that i'll never regret. that i'll cherish. and remember for life




thank.you.

just let me indulge in one more night of dance. please




i'll start tomorrow. i promise =/




how come i'm still not feeling anything now

today is the first meal i had at home since like eons ago.. lol finally remembered how my dad's cooking tastes like =)




being thinking about alot of things recently. most bout dance. haha i will not feel guilty about it coz thats the only goal in my mind right now ( before mugging for A) . i want to attend shohei's class! i want to improve. i want dance.




it'll be the freaking best performance you've seen in ur life!




1 anan lesson per week after this? pleasssee?????

WOOHOO!! its way past midnight but im so freaking excited right now! hahaha over dance! i can just feel the urge to dance coming over me and taking over every cell in my body. lol but apparantly my body is too tired to do so..



shall not elaborate too much. tired.lazy. summary: watched a few dope/ ULTRA inspirational videos. interesting/exciting talk about dance/hiphop on msn. haha all these just fuels me with more passion and desire to improve myself and get the FEEL! LOL



omg i so dun feel like sleeping right now but i must sleep NAO! coz tml will be a super long day in school.. haha there's so much stuff inside me that just feel like bursting out. but guess my gp's too noob to express them in words. so i'll just leave them where they are for now. hahaha




actually i think this post doesnt make much sense again! but its ok as long as i know what im talking about =D




Respect all styles yo!